Right now I feel like my head is a whirl of information. There has been a lot going on in my ‘space’ lately and I am feeling a little overwhelmed and it’s not where I want to be.
Juggling a baby and my blog has been tricky. I’m also completing an online blogging course to give me the tools I need to take my blog to the next level. As I started to set goals for my blog I became super excited for what lies ahead, but in the process I have started to fall back into some old habits.
I feel hurried and on edge again. I feel rushed, like there is always something else I have to do, and my mind is unable to focus and enjoy the present. These are feelings I know all too well and it’s a path I don’t want to travel again.
Since leaving work a year ago I have been trying to carve a slower, simpler lifestyle me and for my family – to enjoy the little things – but niggling in the background has been the pressure of surviving on one income.
While my family has been handling this massive change well, it is quite challenging at times, particularly as I have always worked (either part-time or full time) since having my children so we have always lived quite comfortably.
Despite enjoying this much needed slower lifestyle, I have slowly started to put pressure on myself to bring in some sort of extra income – to feel like I am once again contributing to this family in some way; perhaps guilty for pursuing my passions while my husband heads off to work each day, something I’m ever grateful for.
So I am stepping back for a moment to re-centre my focus and take a moment to remind myself of the important things in my life and the positive changes I have made over the past year …
Family comes first. I made the decision to leave work for one very important reason – to spend more time with my family. My girls were crying out for their mum … and I heard that cry and acted on it. My family needed stability and seeing the happiness in my daughters’ faces each day is truly special. The contribution I make to my family may not have a monetary figure but it means so much more than any salary I could ever earn.
It’s ok to say ‘no’. This blog has provided me with so many wonderful opportunities. It’s easy to feel if I don’t take them up they are going to pass me by and I will be left behind in the process. But that simply isn’t the case. I made a conscious choice to slow down my life for a very important reason and that needs to drive the decisions I continue to make now and into the future.
When I am ready, it will be waiting for me. I have developed some great goals and exciting plans for my blog, but I have come to realise that right now, right this instant, isn’t the best time to implement them. I have a 16-week old baby and, if anything, my life needs to be even more simplified and slowed right down at this moment. There is plenty of time to pick it back up again and to use the knowledge I have learned when I am ready. There is no rush. Slow and steady wins the race. I have great plans and will action them when I feel I can give them the attention they deserve, rather than rush through them half-heartedly right now.
Stop comparing myself to others. It is far too easy to compare myself to others, particularly when it comes to blogging and statistics. It is too easy to wonder how other bloggers gain so much traffic and followers, how they find the time to post so often and create wonderful materials for the readers of their blogs. Instead, I should be celebrating all that I have achieved in the past seven months with a young family, throughout my pregnancy and now with a newborn. I should be proud of the wonderful, engaged community I have built online. I need to reflect on the emails and comments I have received from lovely readers who have taken the time out of their busy days to tell me how much they relate to my posts. That is what it is all about.
I am enough. For now, I am going to keep up my passions, and that is my family and my writing. I am giving all that I can for the moment. What I am doing right now, right at this moment is simply enough.
Have you or are you trying to slow down and simplify your life? What steps are you taking?